name: paloma e.
chem, english majors
far away, in a distant land, you'll find happiness. and when you get there, never forget the humble roots from which you came.
Is it really that weird that I call chubs my little sexy? :( I’m not a pedo. He’s my son! He’s adorable and cute! I’ve been calling him that for months especially since he likes hanging around in his diaper and nothing else. Blah.
I feel like I’m losing him. And I don’t know what to do. I’m so scared. I’m a piece of shit, I get it, I deserve to be unhappy. But I don’t want to lose him.
I just want a hug.
Oh shit that’s super creepy.
I can’t even look at myself without breaking down. I’m such a fucking failure. No matter what I do, it’s not right. My son deserves so much more than me, but I kept him because of what? Because I was lonely? Scared? Sometimes I wish I had given him up for adoption because then maybe they would have been able to give him more.
He’s pooping right now.
Now I know why I kept him.
It’s because I love him.
Truth is, I stopped being a person a long time ago.
Sorry I’m not active. I’d rather spend the whole day sleeping than let you guys know what the hell I’m going through right now. I just need a fucking break, I need to breathe. I want to disappear so badly.. It’s never been this bad before. But I can’t. I’ve got Emi. And he needs me here, but I’m failing him.
Pthbthbththth. #thechubs #babyboy #baby #raspberries #funny
If my mom is the reason I lose this man, I will never forgive her.
So I’m not dead. Just inactive as fuck. I’m back though. I’ve had a rough month.
First trip to the aquarium with my baby boy and best friend, Jasmine. We had a great time! #aquariumofthepacific #aquarium #fishes #shark #thebaby #thechubs
Baby’s first video game with Tio Chubs: Resident Evil 4. #my babyiscoolerthanyours #videogames #thebaby #thechubs #tiochubs #family